Sunday, November 29, 2009

i <3 yakult mascot

it's not often i LOL (like really, laugh out loud) but some silly things really trigger me off. like that day, i just happened to watch half an hour of the fina/arena swimming champs and during the award presentation (when the cameras werent focused on the lanes) i saw the solitary somewhat out-of-place and lonely YAKULT MASCOT dancing and prancing around in the background while the champions received their medals. i thought i even saw it twirling around once or twice. o.0 anyway, i found that funny. haa haa.

talking about mascots, what is it with sg mascots!! they seem to be getting... weirder/more hilarious imo, depending on how u look at it. like lyo and merly omg. OH. which reminds me of the little girl who walked into the clinic hugging a merly. i think it's nice that GPs see all age groups of ppl, makes it less mundane, no? even tho most of the bread-and-butter cases for GPs are kinda standard. and being in an area like punggol, where it's such a young neighbourhood, there are quite a lot of kids coming in for consultation! the typical image i have of a family in punggol would be a young early-30s couple with 1, or maybe 2, young kids in preschool or kindergarten. and after many rounds of taking the LRT that just happens to run in the wrong direction for my liking whenever i need to take it, morning/evening (gahh!) punggol doesnt seem so ulu to me already. but i still dont know where's the punggol seafood places, if there really are any, ha.

hurh. i seem to be having flight of ideas, or loosening of association. hahs. oh and the psych results are out. im quite sad. i got 60.75. which is well. like bottom 10% or something. sad cos i thought i did pretty alright for the osce. and i got 26/40 for the mcq, which is 65%...and if the mcq's weightage is only 10% of the score, ...that would mean i either screwed up the osce (which i dun think so, really,...plus the dr said i "passed"--altho she didnt say gd or bad lah), or my case write ups damn fail. which is quite sad, i think, cos i spent so much time and effort on those 2 darn long case write ups! =(( sigh. u see, the rewards are usually disproportionate to the amount of effort put in. sighhh. that's it for psychiatry! hrmph. no one will want me.

the rest of the courses are having exams right now! even the nus calendar in ivle says "examination week". as usual, we're not included in the system again lar. =(( all the best everyone!

okay, although i've gotten the place already for my dreaded birthday dinner im still well, DREADING it. urgh. damn sian. duno what's gonna happen on tt day, who's gonna turn up, what are we gonna do, what am i gonna say... =(( and it's gonna be kinda weird with my parents away on church camp in msia and uncle and auntie from australia staying here. altho they are prob one of the nicer relatives on dad's side already, together with "gujie" and family, we havent been seeing them regularly for years ever since they migrated to aust, which was when i was still a little girl.

walking along the aisles of cold storage at least gives me a small dose of christmassy feel, arghhh it's so sad, i think when im a working adult christmas wont be the same anymore. crap. it's always nicer through a child's eyes. dont want to lose that feeling. so many things i'd want to buy!! i noe we're having a family christmas gathering during tt weekend, but the exact day's not decided yet. haha i had a hard time selecting a nice square of chocolate for my weekly pleasure =)) hm. u noe how nowadays all the dark, black and exotic expensive-looking chocolates are all the rage; it's as if it's unacceptable to indulge in the cheapo milk chocolate kind we all grew up on. so sad! cocoa makes me happy. ehehe. so much now im addicted to having a cup of hot milo every night =( must cut the addiction. and i want to go CHRISTMAS SHOPPING soon!! before i lose my interest for shopping.

time to study for the day.

oh,forapieceoftherainbow.
8:52 PM

Thursday, November 26, 2009

muted christmas

edwin's party on the 14th!
i enjoyed it, and the place was really very nice. we could see the planes flying overhead as they were making their way to changi! =)) and we saw an a380 too! it's really huge.

this year, the christmas feel hasnt set in yet; usually in previous years it would have already, by now.
sigh, it's kinda a sad night, but i shant think more now. enjoy the nice thursday night.
talk about it tomorrow.

and after 2 full days at the gp clinic where 70% of the cases are URTI i think im getting a flu too!! arghhh! =( sniffs.

oh,forapieceoftherainbow.
9:39 PM

Monday, November 9, 2009

buttons for eyes.

so on friday afternoon, i was in the ward. then we saw this middle-aged chinese lady walking ard the ward, asking the nurses to allow her to help them (they were folding some plastic bags, i think) cos she was very bored. but they wouldnt/couldnt, and told her to go back to her bed. well. this lady has major depressive disorder and stays here for short periods frequently, apparently, whenever her condition deteriorates or she has episodes triggered by certain circumstances. hers is a one long-drawn sad story which im not sure about, but i gathered bits of information to make that out along the way. anyway, it obviously isnt very effective to confine a depressed patient to her bed where she'd just start thinking more depressed thoughts. but i guess the nurses couldnt do anything: they were busy and the therapists had gone home; it was after 5. long story cut short, melo and i decided to try entertain her. she wanted to play reversi, but there wasnt reversi in the ward, so she settled for colouring. and that's her artwork of the little mermaid! and the precious moments girl was mine ahahah. and tts the paper heart she folded; 1 for each of us. she tried to teach us to fold it too but i lost her halfway, oops. though we didnt talk much, it felt nice just sitting there and colouring. for the first time in my life i thought of colouring as a therapeutic event, not just something invented by adults to keep bored kids out of their way. each colour seemed to brighten up the picture little by little. and the action of colouring seemed to have some purpose. =)) yayy.

sigh. their stories are sad. almost every patient in the ward has a story that could probably trump those tv dramas that try to portray a "singaporean" lifestyle. psych has been interesting so far. i kind of enjoy the break from weasling a medical history out of patients. well but there's so much abt the social history here to ask i think if i were a patient i'd feel really irritated. like "what is this nosey medical student gonna do with all these touchy info on my personal past!?" well. we haf to do a case write up :( next one is due this fri, and it's the worst thing abt this posting, hands down.

if not for the case write up, i think i'd just be spending my time in the wards just chatting with whoever wants to speak to us. some of them dont, of course. esp those young girls with eating disorders and the younger depressed patients. since this is my blog i dun haf to sound like a medical student--i actually am darn jealous of the young girls with eating disorders. their arms and legs are so... skinny, for want of a better word. >.< and how do they do it!? it takes a great darn deal of determination and willpower to refuse food like... that. truth is, a lot of them do look quite good, and so i aint surprised if they refuse treatment, actually. ahh, but i digress.

at other times, we try to crash the clinics. it's quite gd, it's like we sit in there for 2 to 3 hours and the cases just walk in without us having to do anything. and now, unlike in med and surg where we hope the cases walk in with SIGNS for us to EXAMINE, --gee, and i HATE thinking like that--, im quite happy just sitting there listening to patients' stories. of course, many of them are just for follow-up for common, non medically interesting problems, but interesting nevertheless.

actually cgh is not that bad, except for the location at SIMEI. argh. or maybe cos it's a short posting. the place looks quite nice, or maybe partly cos it's the psych ward (with nice air con, nice beds, activity area etc). wellll, tmr i'll be going to IMH for a week. it's FAR too, at buangkok. tskk. i seem to be having a spate of far postings, what with a GP at punggol and pasir ris polyclinic next.

patho CA is over and 1 case write up is down, the next 2 weeks i'll be busy with the next case write up and then studying for the eopt. work's never-ending. feel i've neglected many friends and family, but what can i do...?

pics of nice food i've eaten recently to cheer me up! :d

oh,forapieceoftherainbow.
1:16 PM

Friday, October 23, 2009

huggsss

weird bowel syndrome day 4 >.< awoke this morning with a bad, bad pain and diarrhoea again! it was only a small amt each time though. anyway. and that's why i didnt go to AH for morning rounds in the end and am still at home. im gonna miss all the photo-taking! bahh. last BO was slightly >1hr ago. i think it's resolving. at least i haf to go back for the debrief at 2pm anw so hopefully still can take some last photos with this CG. :( truly our last day together! after our 17 weeks together.

yesterday was truly a boomz day. started with weird bowel syndrome again, at 7am and 720am in SGH! was so scared and kept praying i wouldnt haf to go a third time during my eopt. anw i was told to report at 745 but there was no one ard at all in the office until ard 8, thankfully the lady came just when i was gg to panic already. more surprises in store! --my patient was a 85yo chi lady who wasnt a gd historian (even the examiners agreed later but said they didnt haf any other patient) -- o.0 in SGH!? not enough patients!? and worse thing for me was tt she only spoke hokkien! gahh. and later the senior con niao me for being unable to speak hokkien. think she was quite tired actually, and rejected me at first (horrors!), but i pleaded and pleaded and said im having an exam, and she finally agreed (phew).

so i was going crazy soon when after 20min i only had about 5 sentences of history (which i wasnt even sure was truly her history or just what i made up from her garbled speech) and was truly begging the nice student nurse i got as my translator to probe more into her history. anyway, to sum up my examiners were ?okay, i guess. not particularly nice but not evil or sneaky as well i guess. could ans some qns, couldnt ans some. but the reg niao me abt some parts of the hx and PE which i felt quite indignant abt. oh well, but cannot argue w examiners, must accept everything. but shld pass this time round, i think. :)

so that's that for surg eopt! and boomz day continued at raffles city----> aston's at suntec. must credit melo (or was it keith?) for the plan, altho i really think it was quite traumatising. kp seemed to enjoy it actually anyway, so that's ok i guess. but i wonder since when the tradition to "zheng" ppl on their bdays began! =S i honestly wouldnt want to be treated to a surprise like that on mine, really... anyway, it's nice to noe some ppl on the streets are really rather nice! kp managed to garner 5 hugs and 1 semi-hug/photo in all, and 3 were from GIRLS! :))) but could tell that most singaporeans were shy; lol they wouldnt even look at him properly, but almost everyone who saw him would snicker or steal a grin. that all cumulated in a very looong lunch and birthday cake at astons. think we sat there for almost 3 hours, until almost 5.

happy birthday kp! boomz.

oh,forapieceoftherainbow.
10:55 AM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

sigh, this is so horrible, today was supposed to be a studying day for me but i ended up feeling sick: stomachache a/w nausea and a throbbing headache :( why must it be today of all days! i tried to ignore it but the pain was only relieved by lying down, so i ended up drifting in and out of sleep >.< i rmb telling mum this is such a waste of time cos i shld be studying! but if i were to sit up and study i get so nauseated i cant concentrate anyway. urgh.
anyway, i felt better towards the evening and now after eating porridge with small white fish. off to study. byes.

oh,forapieceoftherainbow.
8:45 PM

Sunday, October 18, 2009

omg im so angry i was writing a very long post and my browser just closed and it wasnt saved by blogger. omgggggggggg i think i had spent 1hr on it. i am extremely unhappy. angry! rawr. i am not going to write it again. stupid com stupid browser stupid blogger.

oh,forapieceoftherainbow.
9:36 PM

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